Random Challenge: Day 2

Something You Love About Yourself:

Uhm. I like my lip ring. I like my eyes. Sometimes. I like my taste in music. I LIKE all of those things but I don't LOVE anything about myself. But yeah.

A Letter To Someone I've Drifted Away From.

Dear Chelsey,
I don't really know what in my mind made me choose you for this but I did. I really feel that ever since I sort of asked you out, we've drifted a little. I get the feeling you're still stressing over your feelings for me, and that has made us a little awkward and we seem to talk less. You said that you don't want me to see the bad side of you. You said you get clingy. I don't care about that. If you're clingy, that just shows me you care. But I do agree with the whole not ruining our friendship part though. I enjoy talking to you whenever we do talk. I love having you as a friend. I honestly don't know what made me want something more. But I still do want something more than friendship. But to be honest with you, you were right not to date me. And you shouldn't. I've never been in a relationship before and I would assume I'm probably pretty bad at it. And I'm a complete mess of a person anyway. I don't want you to have to deal with all of my messes and mood swings and all of that. You don't need to see that side of me. It's pretty scary. But you're one of my best friends. And I love you Chels.

Picture: 15

A Picture Of Something You Want To Do Before You Die:

I want to go skydiving. I want to know what it feels like to free-fall thousands of feet through the air.

Music Day Thirteen

A Song That Is A Guilty Pleasure:

Any song I listen to by Lil Wayne. xD

Random Challenge: Day 1

Something You Hate About Yourself:

Hmmmmm. Something I hate about myself, let's seee.... How about everything? I hate my personality, I hate the way I look, I hate the way I talk. I just hate everything.

That's All She Wrote.

I've decided to start another challenge. I might skip some of them though because they get a little too personal and this blog isn't a personal blog. Here's thee list.


Day 01 - Something you hate about yourself
Day 02 - Something you love about yourself
Day 03 - Something you have to forgive yourself for
Day 04 - Something you have to forgive someone for
Day 05 - Something you hope to do in your life
Day 06 - Something you hope you never have to do
Day 07 - Someone who has made your life worth living for
Day 08 - Someone who made your life hell or treated you like shit.
Day 09 - Someone you didn’t want to let go but just drifted
Day 10 - Someone you need to let go or wish you didn’t know
Day 11 - Something people seem to compliment you the most on
Day 12 - Something you never get compliments on
Day 13 - A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter)
Day 14 - A hero that has let you down (letter)
Day 15 - Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it
Day 16 - Someone or something you definitely could live without
Day 17 - A book you’ve read that changed your views on something
Day 18 - Your views on gay marriage
Day 19 - What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 - Your views on drugs and alcohol
Day 21 - (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 - Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 - Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 - Make a playlist to someone and explain why you chose all the songs (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 - The reason you believe you’re still alive today
Day 26 - Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 - What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 - What if you were pregnant of got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 - Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 - A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

A Letter To Someone I Wish Could Forgive Me.

There are too many people that I wish could forgive me.
So.

Dear Everyone I Know,
Please forgive me. Forgive me for the things I've said wrong, the things I've done wrong and everything I will say and do wrong in the future. I'm sorry for everything. I just wish I had a second chance to do everything right. I can't even imagine my life without any of the people I'm speaking to right now. I don't even think I would exist without any of you. I'm just sorry. I guess I'm one sorry ass mofo.

Picture: 14

A Picture Of Someone You Could Never Imagine Your Life Without:

BEAR. You're one of my best friends and I love you(: I've tried and I can't even see my life without you being in it. And this is my favorite picture of us even if it is a year or so old.

(And no offense, but I was going to do Ashlynne for this one but I already have a picture with her on here. So.)

Music Day Twelve

A Song From A Band You Hate:

Anything by JBiebz. Lol.

A Letter To The Person Who I Hate The Most/Caused A Lot Of Pain.

Hmph.

I don't hate anyone.

The only person that causes me pain is me, so.

Not even gonna go there.

Picture: 13

A Picture Of Your Favorite Band:

Black Veil Brides mayneeee. Andy, Y U so pretty. (:

Music Day Eleven

A Song From Your Favorite Band:

Rebel Love Song by Black Veil Brides.

A Letter To A Deceased Person I Wish I Could Talk To.

Dear Grandpa Reginald (Reggie),
I wish I could of met you. From all the stories my mom has told me about you, you seemed like a pretty chill person. In the stories she told, sure you were drunk all the time, but she told me you were funny. I really wish you were still alive. Then all of this family drama wouldn't be going on between my mom and her no longer sister Mary. You would be the one to end this argument for good. You would tell Mary to get off her high horse and change her last name because she isn't your kid. If you were still alive I don't even think this feud would of started because you would of told Mary to fuck off a long time ago. But now I'm starting to babble about stupid things that aren't important. So moving on. Even if I would of been able to meet you or if you were still alive, I wonder. Would I have lived up to your expectations? Would I even be the way I am now if I would of been able to know you? I don't know. But I wish I could talk to you. I want to know what kind of personality you have and if I inherited anything from you. But yeah. I don't know what else to say. So I'm going to end it here. (:

Picture: 12

A Picture Of Something You Love:
I LOVE JOLLY RANCHERS. xD

Music Challenge Day Numero Ten

A Song That Makes You Fall Asleep:
Wtf. Any song can make me fall asleep. If I'm listening to anything while trying to sleep it'll most likely make me fall asleep faster than normal.

A Letter To Someone I Don't Talk To As Much As I'd Like.

Dear Alycia,
I have to admit, I honestly didn't think that you liked me. At all. You were always quiet when I was around you and Kayla. But then Kayla told me you thought I didn't like you. Aha. That's when we sort of started talking more. I think you're a pretty chill person to be around. We should talk more. I don't know what we would talk about but we should. I'm glad that you're in my auto class. We both admit to each other that we don't know what the fuck we're doing but we usually figure it out anyway. And now I feel like I'm babbling so I'm going to stop now.

Picture: 11 (Yeah I skipped 9&10)

A Picture Of Something You Hate:
I hate people that sit around all day and have nothing better to do than criticize things. Like on Facebook. I found this page and it's called 'Emo People'. I've read some of the posts on the wall and there are sooo many people that have nothing better to do than post hateful shit on the wall. Some of the posts were like, 'Emo people need to go kill themselves.' or 'Emo people are such fags.' It's like really? Do honestly have nothing better to do with your life? This is why I hate people.

Music Challenge Day Numero Nine (Fuck it with the spanish numbers already)

A Song That You Can Dance To:

.. Do I look like I fucking dance?
But I'll just say the Dance (Ass) song by Big Sean & Nicki Minaj.
I've caught myself dancing to that song before. :p

A Letter To Someone I Wish I Could Meet

(Yeah I totally skipped numbers 7&8 so deal with it)
Dear Megan Fox,
Yeah I don't even know why I picked you but I guess I just want to meet you because I want to see if you're a total bitch or not. Lol. Yeah that is all. (:

Picture: Siete & Ocho

A Picture Of Your Most Treasured Item:
This is Poncho the Panda and Jorge the Monkey. They were given to me by my two best friends. (:

A Picture That Makes You Laugh:
This is the cutest picture ever and it always makes me cheese;

Music Challenge Day Numero Siete & Ocho

A Song That Reminds You Of A Certain Event:
Ima go with 'Starships' by Nicki Minaj. It reminds me of the pep rally on Friday.


A Song That You Know All The Words To:
There are a few songs that I know all the words to. But Ima say 'She Will' by Lil Wayne.

Picture Challenge: Seis

A Picture Of A Person You'd Love To Trade Places With For A Day:
Ashley Purdy. Because he's gorgeous and he gets to see Andy Biersack and yeah.

Music Challenge Day Numero Seis

A Song That Reminds You Of Somewhere:
'Tie My Hands' by Lil Wayne & Robin Thicke. It reminds me of New Orleans because the song was made after Hurricane Katrina.

A Letter To A Stranger

Dear Stranger,
Hi. How are you? I hope you're good. I'm good. But yeah. Sup.

Picture Challenge: Cinco

A Picture Of Your Favorite Memory:
This is a picture of the Uncle Wilbur Fountain in Colorado Springs, Colorado. I picked this as my favorite memory just because Colorado was the only thing I could think of.

Music Challenge Day Numero Cinco

A Song That Reminds You Of Someone:
'Caraphernelia' by Pierce The Veil. This song reminds me of Ashlynne just because it's PTV for one and I think this is the first song she ever showed me by them. Yeah.

A Letter To My Dreams

Dear Dreams,
Y U gotta be so hard to remember? That's all I have to say. :p

Picture Challenge: Cuatro

A Picture Of Your Night:
I kinddd of smoked again last night for the first time in about .. 3 weeks? Fuck.

Music Challenge Day Numero Cuatro

A Song That Makes You Sad:
'Runaway Love' by Ludacris & Mary J. Blige
Sad shit right thurrr.

A Letter To My Brother

Dear RJ,
Where do I even begin? You're my favorite sibling. But then again I've only met my actual biological brother once since he got out of jail. And as of right now, his girlfriend is more important to him than we are. But anyway, getting off topic. I love you. I remember being a little kid and always getting excited when mom said you were coming over. You're the one that made me see that it's okay to not give a shit what people think. You know how to speak your mind. And those are the things that I learned from you. But I can't give you all the credit. Mom helped me see those things too. I love you Rj.

Picture Challenge: Tres

A Picture of the Cast From Your Favorite Show:
2 Broke Girls. My favorite show of all time. So far.

Music Challenge Day Numero Tres

A Song That Makes You Happy:
As of right now I think I'm going to go with 'Have Faith In Me' by A Day To Remember. Aha. I wonder whyyyyyy. x3

A Letter To My Mom

Dear Mom,
There aren't enough words in the world to describe how grateful I am to have you as my mother. I mean sure there are times when I feel like you hate me because you don't let me go out and hang out with my friends. But you tell me it's because you're being protective. And I tell you all of the time that you don't have to worry about me. I can take care of myself. It's not like my friends are serial killers and they're just out to kill me. I mean come on. You've met the majority of my friends and you've let me go out with them and nothing's ever happened. Ever. I've never gotten into trouble, never gotten hurt. I just don't understand your reasoning. But I love you anyways. I just wish you'd see that you can trust me and that I can handle myself when I'm with them.

Picture Challenge: Dos

A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.
This is my best friend. Ashlynne. Oh you. (:

Music Challenge Day Numero Dos

Your Least Favorite Song:
This is sort of hard since I like most songs but I think I'm going to go with 'Call Me Maybe' by Carly Rae Jepsen (I had to look up who it was by). That song is so annoying and over-played.

A Letter To My Crush

Okay. So I know that two of my crushes read this blog. So I'm going to write this letter to my third crush that I'm pretty sure doesn't read this blog.

Dear Taylor,
I don't really know what to say. So forgive me now if I start rambling on. It came as a complete surprise to me when I started developing feelings for you. Last year, you were one of the three? people that knew who my crush at that time was. And I was sure that that crush would last for awhile. Which it has since I still like her too. But this year I started liking you. I tried to prevent it, believe me. But I don't know what I was thinking trying to do so. You say that I should tell you that I like you in person, but that's not exactly as easy as it seems. I've thought about it and I still don't know why I like you since you're in a relationship. Why do I seem to pick people that are in relationships? Ahh well. I'm rambling and this letter didn't really explain shit so Ima stop writing now. Bye.

Picture Challenge: Uno

A Picture Of Yourself With 15 Facts.
1. I'm a total slacker. xD
2. Two of my best friends also happen to be my two crushes. :p
3. I may have a lot of friends, but I only trust two of them fully.
4. I love being outside.
5. I may not look like it, but I like cars. Mainly Chevy Camaros. (:
6. I like piercings. And tattoos. When I turn 18 I'm gonna go nuts with tattoos.
7. My main goal after I graduate is to move out of state.
8. I know this is weird, but I like bruises. I just like the way they look.
9. I may look like and say that I'm a heartless person, but in reality I'm not.
10. Ever since I was a kid, I've wanted to learn to play the guitar.
11. In all actuality, I'm a quiet person around most people. Unless you're Ashlynne or Taylor. Then I may be loud a'f. x3
12. My favorite animal is a panda.
13. The one thing I'm afraid of in life is losing someone close to me. Otherwise, I'm a fearless person.
14. I have a soft spot for reallyyy attractive actresses. Lol.
15. My mom is basically the only family I have that cares.

Choking On Your Alibi's

Going to start another challenge. It's a picture one this time. Fuck. Here's the list.

 

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Day 04 - A picture of your night

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 19 - A picture and a letter

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

Day 25 - A picture of your day

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

Music Challenge Day Numero Uno

Your Favorite Song:
Hmmmm. Probably going to have to go with 'I'm Low On Gas And You Need A Jacket' by Pierce The Veil. Mmmmmhm.

You Slide Into Bed While I Get Drunk

So. I'm randomly going to start a challenge. It's a music one. Here's thee list.

• Day 01 – Your favorite song
• Day 02 – Your least favorite song
• Day 03 – A song that makes you happy
• Day 04 – A song that makes you sad
• Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone
• Day 06 – A song that reminds you of somewhere
• Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event
• Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to
• Day 09 – A song that you can dance to
• Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
• Day 11 – A song from your favorite band
• Day 12 – A song from a band you hate
• Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure
• Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love
• Day 15 – A song that describes you
• Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate
• Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio
• Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio
• Day 19 – A song from your favorite album
• Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry
• Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy
• Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad
• Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding
• Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral
• Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh
• Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument
• Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play
• Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty
• Day 29 – A song from your childhood
• Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year

Tonight, I'll Make You Feel Beautiful Once Again

So something eventful happened this weekend. On Saturday to be exact. I don't really want to say what it was because it's more of a personal matter and my more personal shit goes on the other blog. But let's just say I was caught off guard. Someone that I've liked since last year told me that she did have feelings for me too at the time. When I was told this, I totally beat myself up mentally. The same question was repeating over and over and over again in my head. Why didn't I tell her I liked her last year when I had the chance? We could of dated. Whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy. That brought a memory of this one night last year. I was sitting with Violet and we were chillin' on our computers. I was texting this person at the time. And I had the sudden urge to tell her. I even sort of started to tell her. Well, I wasn't exactly going to tell her. I was going to ask her out. I started out with I need to ask you something important. And I made Violet send it for me because I couldn't. But when her response came, I chickened out. I'm such a fucking pansy ass. But something else also happened yesterday. Violet and I were texting and apparently her father wants to talk to my mom. Again. There's a part of me that wants them to get back together, but then the other part doesn't because of the shit he put her through. I mean sure she did seem happier with him. At times. The other times, well let's just say when he put her in a bad mood, it was sort of scary. I guess we'll just have to see how things play out.

I'm Goin' Crazy

Have you ever had that 'love/hate' feeling where you love something but hate it at the same time? Well I do right now. I guess I shouldn't really call it a love/hate thing. A more appropriate name would be like 'should I /shouldn't I'. Mehr. I don't even know how to explain it. There's .. someone. There's three someones actually. I'm pretty sure all of them know my feelings for them. Well, maybe there's one that doesn't, but who knows. It's not like I'm going to ask. Anyway, I know for a fact that not one of them would date me. Two have girlfriends and the third said we should just stay friends for the sake of how good of a friendship we have. And I agree .. to an extent. But then again who would agree fully with being rejected? That's why I'm in this thinking of should I like them or should I not like them? Blah. Why do I have to be human? Can't I just be a robot and not have any emotional feeling? I would like that very much.

To My Best Friend

Ashlynne,
Hiiiiii. I really don't know what to write. I enjoyed reading your letter to me. It made me remember all those things we did. And I smiled. (: I'm glad we got put into the same Psychology class last year. If that wouldn't of happened, we probably wouldn't of reconnected. But I don't want to think about what would of happened then. I'm glad that you're one of my best friends. I try to think of my life if I would of never met you. And I found out how impossible that is. I think my life would be boring as fuck if you weren't my best friend. It's like you're my other half. Except you know, not in the dating sort of way. But anyway, I'm thankful to have you to talk to if I need to. and you can always talk to me if you ever need to. I'll always be here for you. I love you, best friend.

Darling, It's Cold Outside

Fuck today. Fuck everything about today. Every single effing thing on/in my body hurts and I don't know why. Fuck. Whateves. I guess I sort of asked for the pain. But I just thought it would of been more prominent than it is now. But who knows. Maybe it'll get worse.

Keep In Happiness And Torture Me.

Today. It's been pretty good so far. I'm getting better at distracting my mind from the things I don't want to think about. Unless it's just because there are plenty of distractions in my classes. I don't know. I guess I'll find out when I'm alone again. I totally pierced someone for the first time last night. I pierced Ashlynne's cartilage. I was kind of nervous at first and her saying 'Fuck' over and over before I did it, didn't help. But I did it. I honestly don't think I could be a professional piercer because I don't like putting people through pain. But I could probably pierce myself if I wanted. I don't mind pain. Mehr. I'm bored. And I have to pee. Fuck. Well, toodles.

Dry, But The Taste Of Blood Remains

I really hope today is a good day. I have a headache, but today kind of feels like it will be better than yesterday. I really don't know why. I woke up and automatically wanted to go back to sleep. I want to go to sleep right now. Ha. Last night was sort of eventful. Ashlynne got her tragus pierced and I think it looks pretty legit. I wanted to pierce my eyebrow but I would of got skinned alive by my mother. Just wait until after my senior pictures. then I'll get the rest of what I want pierced. :)

A Million Hooks Around A Million Ways To Die

Today. Hmmmmm. It sucked. I was in an irritated mood for most of the day and I don't even know why. It's just one of those days I guess. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.